Thursday, August 31, 2006

Reason to learn English - Been alone

I am now in trainning to teach English, with a system that I don't belive it works but, anyway, I found out that many of the teachers do not follow the method because it doesn't work. In this short period I found out that the principal can not have kids, that she is a mayor bitch that makes teachers cry ( if she tries that with me she will be the one crying ), that many of the teachers are harrased by students, that a boy came looking for a teacher that he said was dating his girlfriend and he was there to kick the teacher's ass, and that is better to bring your own markers because they will not give u one unless you get along with the principal aka the fat bitch or the cordinator ( that has the strongest accent that I have ever heard ). So is harmony is all around. The teacher that I will be helping this next weeks ( as part of the trainning ) has tatoos in the fingers, different shapes, a moon, a square and some other shapes, one per finger, he is bold, and he had destroyed lifes and now he likes teaching because, he feels fulfilled when students tell him that he is a good teacher, well, in nicer words, God keeps sending wierd, strange, interesting people for me to meet, which is great, I was suppose to be with another teacher that had a puke face when he was told by mistake that I was going to be helping him... fortunately it was a mistake. Joe ( the guy I will be helping ) also let me know that many people came to learn English, not just to learn but to look for company and since the school method is very humanistic ( I am sick of this word ) students tend to get the wrong idea and they start harrasing teachers ( can u belive that ) specially teenage girls, although, I have seen teachers making macho comments about girls. So for sure the number one lesson to be at an English school seems to be not to be alone, some others, I am here because my parents do not like my boyfriend and they wanted me to do something in the afternoon no to be with him, and it worked.

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

1972 shades of blue

I know a guy that is only able to see the color blue, he can tell apart 1972 shades of blue, ever since he was a child he started naming all this shades, blue tea cup, blue car in the afternoon, etc., he hasnĀ“t been able to get a well paid job because of this peculiar characteristic. He says that he will get the perfect job once his dead; He thinks he will be allowed to paint the sky. So in order to fulfill his destiny and do what he was born to do, he decided to kill himself.

Monday, August 28, 2006

fairness

Dont ask life for fairness because she does not know the meaning.

Friday, August 25, 2006

Garbage can

I am a garbage can .. I get what other people don't want.

rules

love and attraction have their own rules.

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

There is not such thing as the RIGHT decision.. Is it?

Once, I stoped, and took a decision, whether I wanted to be rich in money or in experiences, I decided to be rich in experiences, so now, instead of counting coins I count photographs and instead of bank statements I have photo albums. Now, it is time to stop again.

Thursday, August 17, 2006

Yoko?


It seems that Yoko Ono was in my neighborhood.. she got into this place underconstruction that you can see from my livingroom, and put this piece for me to see.. this white sheet reminds me of her earlier work. Thanks Yoko, next time you might want to come by and we can destroy anything and make art out of it, I am in apartment number 5.. We should call this piece number 5..

Plans

I already have plans for my next life, I only hope I will be able to remember, As soon as I die and be born again, I will start working on them..

Girls in Mexico City are so fucking scared

You can not make friends like u use to.. specially with girls, they are so fucking scared that when u walk behind them they just start to walk faster, and this are not just girls that u find in the street and that u had never seen before, no, this are new classmates or girls that u have seen before and that u will still be seen. Fortunately I am not into girls, but I am still into making friends..

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

This was me in my early 20s

I just found a notebook that I used to draw my ideas and write my thoughts when I was in my early 20s, I used to write in English because I guess it is harder to tell things about yourself in your own lenguaje, when I was writing in English sometimes it felt like I was writing about somebody else.. some of the metaforas ( I dont feel like looking for the word in English now) are horrible, but I will not edit myself.. so this was me.

Now that I have nobody but penpals, I feel quite bored, I found good books but I can't think anymore. I am worried because I had broken Salvador Dali's rule, I had too much and now I do not know how to fill the emptiness, shit! shit! shit!
My situation is good but I am not fine, I am ok but sad. I had never had anybody, except for you know who ( in 2006 I really dont remember who) damn.
I cant be all sad because somebody loves me ( I remember now in 2006) Damn.
I felt miserable in my job.
Expectations- the world puts on you since you are born ( this lead to my first 40x40 work from the squares series the one that I will later call nursery, the unopen cans represent unborn children and the forks the word just waiting for them to be out to put their sharp points in their flesh).
I want some extasy and a good fuck.
I had a movie romance.. not really, but Can I have it again?
I was searching or and asking for a sign but the are so confusing, that actually it will be fun to try to solve them. If I only had the time.
I messed up at work.. I really dont care.
Is this a sign for my next move?
If I could find my new street name.
I hope I can sleep well today
Time is running or ticking or whatever
I think I know now why I dont really talk much, This is because I talk to myself all the time so I dont feel the need to talk to anybody else.
Picking up my dirty clothes the fucking socks keep falling down
Everything is starting to work out.. but for everyone else.
Today I emptied my bad Karma it cost me 20usd, like 30 minutes of anger, fair enough, I said.
So I thought, this fucking emptiness again, no nice clothes, no new cd, no anything can fill the emptiness.
Jay made me realize many things yesterday. God, what to do.. how to reach.
I had nothing to lose ( that I care ) I will be a budist soon.